Yesterday was my and Cameron’s first wedding anniversary. In January we will have our 4th anniversary since first dating. We had a low-key day, since going out of town is not very reasonable for us right now, but it was still fun. He made me breakfast, we sat around and had coffee, watched the early football games, went out to the theater to watch the Broncos game (the historic movie theater here hosts the games each week for $10 with a hot dog/nacho buffet, it’s really fun!), and then had dinner at the Dunraven Inn.
I don’t feel like getting super sappy, so here are pictures instead. That’s more fun, right?
Well, we’ve come to the end of the world the year. The solstice is here and now the world begins to turn back toward the sunlight and the coming of spring. (Which is why I much prefer the notion of today being midwinter instead of the first day of winter!) Guess it’s about time to give a little recap of the year maybe!
2012 came in snowy, cold, and windy here in Estes Park. We spent a lot of time up in the Park snowshoeing and exploring. Here’s the highlights of the year!
In late January, we brought Sherlock home from the shelter.
In early February we went on a short vacation to Ouray (near Telluride) in the San Juans and it was AWESOME! We spent time at the hot springs and we got to go sledding and snow mobiling in the mountains (well, for a little, till Cameron dumped the snow mobile in 16 feet of powder). We also got to go on a zip line! It was so much fun.
Snowshoeing at Cub Lake
In March, Cameron shaved his head for St. Baldrick’s. Scary!
In July we bought a house! We were able to move from our 600-sq ft cabin into our very first, very own 1600-sq ft house.
Over the summer I got to see Florence and the Machine (birthday gift from Cameron) and Mumford & Sons at Red Rocks Amphitheater. AMAZING.
September brought a trip to Santa Fe to visit the renaissance festival there. One of my favorites!
In October, of course, we ate candy. Just kidding–we got married!
Right after the wedding, I got an offer from a literary agency to represent me and my book.
This year was my first Thanksgiving! It was nummy.
Some other photo highlights, in no particular order:
Saints versus Broncos
Colorado Renaissance Festival
Hiking Lily Mountain
Christmas cookie party
Playing Lady Macbeth for an acting class (wish I’d gotten to do the whole show)
Singing with the Oratorio Society of Estes Park
My 24th birthday
Cameron’s 29th birthday
Hard to believe that 2013 is already upon us. We are leaving almost immediately as the new year comes in and heading to Hawaii for 3. Whole. Weeks. Good lordy I can’t wait to be a beach bum for a while. We are also hoping that 2013 might include a mini Carruthers joining the family–keep your fingers crossed for us!
Dang, I have been married for 2 weeks! It feels like a long time ago. Last week I was actually really sad that it was over. All that time leading up to it and then it was such a beautiful day and it was over SO fast. I miss it. Not all the stress, but the having the family and friends near…being able to see people I haven’t seen in a long time. It was just a magical couple of days and I really wish I could have that back.
But onwards and upwards, I guess. I have a lot of things on my plate. First off, today I sent out my contract to the literary agency!
Soon I should begin the editing and revision process with my editor. I’m so ready to go. I have no idea what they’re going to want out of me so I’m very anxious to get going. I have to reconfigure my entire schedule around the kind of work they’ll want out of me and I foresee a lot of late nights spent editing. But I couldn’t be more happy about that. This is what I love and I am still in a state of shock that it’s moving forward.
What else. I’ve started running, which is a huge achievement for me because I am a terrible couch potato. I used to not care so much because when I worked in the restaurant I was on my feet and running around like crazy for 8 or 9 hours a day, but now at the bank I’m pretty sedentary and I know that could sneak up on me if I’m not careful. I definitely didn’t do enough before the wedding and I’m a little embarrassed about some of the wedding photos so that kind of bums me out even though there’s nothing I can do to change it. I’m using an iPhone app that takes you from 0-10K through a slow progression. I’m still pretty early on in the process but I’m glad to be doing it. I was originally planning on doing a 10K in December with some girlfriends, but my work schedule intervened and I’ll have to sit that one out, but it’s still a good thing to do for myself to stay healthy especially before I get pregnant.
Lately I’ve been working a lot on making the house feel more homey. We’ve been here for almost 5 months and it still feels….not ours. A house more than a home. So over the weekend I put up shelves in the kitchen and painted a wall in the living room to give it some character. We just got the proofs of the wedding photos and they are GORGEOUS so I can’t wait to have an absolute field day getting some printed and framed. (Speaking of wedding photos we still haven’t developed the disposable cameras we had at all the reception tables, we need to get on that.) Last week we planted some trees in the yard that our next door neighbor was nice enough to give to us. We put two aspens in the backyard and a “Siberian Snow Pea” in the front yard. I put it in quotations because I don’t know if that’s the actual name, that’s what our neighbors kept calling it. Either way we put it in the front because it is thorny and the elk won’t eat it! I organized the kitchen cabinets in an attempt to become less cluttered because that has been a huge challenge for us. I really hate clutter but for some reason it is just so easy to accumulate! Maybe now that the wedding is over and life is kind of “normal” now it might get a little easier. I hope anyway. I know it’s something that we have to work on together and it’s not just going to happen on its own but hopefully with things more organized it’ll be easier. I think my project this weekend will be to tackle the guest room because it looks like a bomb has gone off in there.
Keeping the house clutter-free isn’t the only challenge I’ve had with routines lately. You’d think with me working pretty standard hours it would be easier to have a routine for getting things cleaned, doing the laundry, shopping for groceries, cooking dinner…but for some reason it is really hard. It’s even more hard to fit in things like, writing. I have been much better at keeping a good reading schedule, which is a habit I’ve been sorely remiss on lately. I am plowing my way through A Clash of Kings and this weekend when I accidentally left my book at work I felt really lonely.
Fall is pretty much coming to a fade here in Estes Park. The parking lot grows emptier and emptier every day which means the tourists are heading home (yay!). The weather forecast is calling for some pretty significant snow later this weekend and I am really excited! The trees have almost all dropped their leaves and it looks pretty much like early winter here even though the temperatures are still pretty mild. It’s strange going down the valley because a lot of the trees down there are still green. Such a wide range of stages of fall. Unfortunately we do still have a wildfire happening up here, but it is doing some good as it’s getting rid of a lot of the beetle kill in the higher areas which means we’ll start getting a lot more aspens and new trees up there. It looks bad because of the wind. This is how it looked today when I went to lunch.
It also looks a lot closer than it is. It’s only 7 miles away but it’s way up in the high terrain so there’s not a whole lot of danger to the city right now.
Welp, I think that about does it for now. Life continues to move forward. I’m excited to see what the next couple of weeks will bring with the agent. I’ll keep you updated!
What fun we had. I was concerned about the weather but in hindsight I think it just made it all more memorable. The temperature at the time of the ceremony was roughly 30 degrees and we had snow flurries in the air. As you can see from the picture, I did not have a whole lot on and boy was it cold. But it was worth it. It was great Scottish weather for a Scottish handfasting! The clouds were really low and looked like fog in the distance. As one friend said, the only thing we were missing was heather on the hill! We had a beautiful ceremony full of laughs and tears and memories. It was over so fast (even though it felt like years out there in the cold) and the reception went even faster. That night Cameron and I relaxed at a resort hotel and in the morning we had breakfast and massages followed by lunch at my parents’ house where we visited more with our out of town guests and opened up our gifts. It was a whirlwind weekend and I really wish I could do it all over again, despite all that time I said that I wanted it to just be over.
Now I can’t wait to see all the professional photos. In the meantime, here’s a few that we collected from friends.
Being off the Pill after so many years on it is turning out to be like…going through puberty all over again. Or something. Mostly I forgot what it really feels like to go through these monthly processes. (Procees? Isn’t there another way of saying that? I dunno. It’s Friday and my brain is in hyper-overload and doesn’t have any room left for correct spelling. May my college professors forgive me.)
I never really had terrible debilitating periods like many women have before I was on the pill. Not like it was a lot of fun, granted, but it could have been worse. Periods on the pill were a breeze. Light cramping about a week out, mild cramps on day one, and then I sailed through the rest of the time. TMI, I know. But whatever. You could have stopped reading a paragraph ago.
Now, though, I’ve been off the Pill for…a week? 2 weeks? I don’t even remember anymore, things have been so crazy. In any case, I know I was “supposed” to ovulate this week and right now my ovaries feel like huge angry balloons. To be honest I don’t remember what a pre-period felt like before I was on the pill, so I don’t remember if this was normal or not, or if it’s a side-effect of the Pill hormones leaving my body, or if it’s something that I should be concerned about. I’m trying not to get worked up about it because I know that I’ve also been incredibly stressed this last week and that is probably contributing now that my body is trying to regulate itself and doesn’t have the help of hormones. So, we’ll see. (Obviously, I know that I should go to the hospital for severe pain or other symptoms, but I’m trying not to jump the gun over something dumb right now.)
Did anyone else out there have similar concerns when you came off the pill? How long were you on it? Did everything normalize for you in a short while or did it take longer? I have no idea what to expect from my body right now especially since my stress level is at roughly a 12 out of 10 the last week or so, and that could really be throwing things out of whack. Better Half is convinced I’m pregnant (for God knows why) and normally I would be paranoid enough to believe him, but I have zero symptoms, so barring the absence of a period in the next 2 weeks, I’m not going to jump the gun there and buy a test. But, all that being said, that’s why I’m coming off the pill now so that my body has a chance to figure itself out by the time we are in Hawaii and start the TTC process in earnest.
In other non-icky-body related news, we are encroaching on 7 days out for the wedding. Holy shit! I think everything is about ready to go. I met with our new photographer yesterday and she seems really nice. We decided to do our formal photos before the ceremony even though I’d been set this whole time on waiting to see each other. I think it’ll just reduce the stress level on both of us, get those pre-jitters out of the way, and we’ll be able to get to the reception faster. Plus we’ll get the awesome “first look” photo op without anyone else there. I think it’ll be great. Also yesterday I dropped off my ring to be cleaned (I hate not having it!), picked up my garter and splurged on some pretty things to put in my hair. My mom and I met at the ceremony site to nail down some places and times for the big day and I also found something for Brody (our dog) to carry the rings in. Oh, and I found some pretty glass bowls on sale (50% off!) at Hobby Lobby for us to put the bubble wands in at the tables.
Oh yeah, and I did this!
Way easier than I thought they’d be! I’m really pleased with them. We asked our friend Kyle to tie them for us during the ceremony. Kyle introduced us, so we thought it was appropriate. He was there to see us through the beginning of our relationship, now he’ll see us through to the next part.
Anyway, I think all those little details are finally almost wrapped up. I’m just really eager for the big day to be here. Can’t come soon enough! This weekend I am going to attempt to clean my house, what with relatives coming next week to stay with us. A very kind and gracious friend (actually, someone I used to work for) is giving me her iPhone 4 when her 5 arrives, which is supposed to be today, so I’m very stoked to be potentially getting a new toy this weekend. I will have plenty enough to keep me occupied until next week.
Okay. In hindsight, I feel bad about feeling apathetic about the wedding.
In the end, everything is just details. When the day comes, I’m going to be beyond excited. I’m already excited. Now that we’re within 2 weeks (or just about) I am getting a bubbly feeling in my stomach when I think about it. This is the day I’m going to share with my best friend, my Better Half, and it’s going to be perfect–even if things go wrong.
I shouldn’t worry so much. I shouldn’t stress so much. It is going to be what it’s going to be and I just have to let it be.
Now that the little things like–how am I going to do my hair? are coming up, I’m feeling excited. I’m ready for this day to be here–we’ve been planning it for 14 months and I am ready to share it with my family and friends. Makes me wish the honeymoon was right away, but in the meantime we do get to stay at a swank resort hotel the night of the wedding and have massages and breakfast the next morning!
I still have a few things to do, like…make the handfasting cords. Yeep. (And decide who’s going to tie them….) Get my bridesmaid’s gifts. It would be so much easier to do some of the last minute things I need to do if I lived in civilization and had things readily available. Instead, it’s a struggle of “I need to go to Michaels. Do I have 3 hours today to go down the valley? No.” So I have to put things off until I have almost an entire day to spend. Luckily I have a day off next week plus the weekend to get some things done. I also only have to work Monday and Tuesday the week of the wedding, so that should be enough time.
Oh yeah, and I still have to write my vows. Whoops. They’ve been bouncing around in my head for weeks now and I just haven’t had time to write them down. Bad Steph. Luckily, the ceremony has been written, our readers have been chosen, and the program has been typed–now I just need to figure out how best to print them. I think that about wraps it up. I think.